judithcollins1

Tears flowing down my cheeks like the drops of rain coming down from the sky. The more I think of you my mind can still hear the words coming slowly back to haunt me once again. I have no will power to block them out. Here I sat in this big empty house with nobody to care if I live or die. Five rooms fill with my  booming cry, why, why what did I ever do to deserve this? Through the stillness and quiet the answer echo's all you ever did was love him . The boys toys lay scattered out and their lives once again shattered due to your heartlessness. Their beds lay unmade, they are gone. I know they were not mine by birth.  Enough of this sorrow tomorrow will come and my life will go on. I know after the storm there is always a calm. God has gave me the strength to move on into the sunlight of his love. I now know the answer to my question why,why., he was no good for you as the angels surround me at night and I turn my light off I fall into a deep slumber wondering how much love can one give and never get it right,or back in return.